世间之大,我却只能在此哀叹。人生如梦,我却只是生活的傀儡,八十年的光阴,挥之而去。——题记
十五岁那年,我离开了故乡,离开了家人,来到了战火硝烟的沙场。一去,便是近七十年。如今,我回到了这个熟悉而陌生的地方,一切,物是人非……
依旧是那几座大山;依旧是那几栋破烂的房屋;依旧是那蜿蜒曲折的小路。然而,却不再是那熟悉的人了。偶尔看见几个村里人经过,看着他们年来沧桑的背影。泪水,模糊了我的视线。我的父亲母亲,我的兄弟姐妹,你们还好吗?一个村里人告诉我:“看那边的大山下,一栋破烂不堪的房屋,却已经没人居住了,那里便是你的家。山上,坟墓一个接着一个。唉!他们都不在了。”我震撼了。我已记不清自己是怎样跌跌撞撞来到这——我的家。暗黄的墙壁,虚掩的大门。我推门而入,一阵阴扑鼻而来,空荡荡的房子。空荡荡的心。
突然,一只野兔从家中窜出,门外,偶尔飞过几只鸡。为什么?只剩下这些牲畜了。看着门外的庭院上长满了野生的谷子,还有井边那一丛丛的野生葵菜。什么都有,唯独,那些人,已不在了。我拾起那些谷子,摘了些野葵菜,生了火,火光照着房屋通红通红,袅袅青烟徐徐上升,往事的一幕幕,都浮现在我眼前,恍惚间,我看见了爹娘在哭泣,只是一瞬间,依旧是那空荡荡的房子。我的泪,早已流干了。那些年颠沛流离,南征北伐的生活,我的心,早已麻木了。心中仅存的一丝希望,就是希望能与亲人团聚。如今,我这唯一的希望也破灭了。
我来到父母的坟前,哭,使劲的哭,哭尽了我这一辈子的眼泪,来祭奠我这荒唐的一生。我注定,这一辈子,都是生活的傀儡,被命运摆布的傀儡。我的一生呀!就在这残酷的现实中度过。呵!我又疯狂的大笑,像个疯子一样的笑话我的一生,这是一个多么荒唐的一生啊!
夕阳西下。一个年老沧桑的背影,消失在天涯。我走了……
原文:十五从军征,八十始得归。道逢乡里人,家中有阿谁?
遥看是君家,松柏冢累累。兔从狗窦入,雉从梁上飞。
羹饭一时熟,不知饴阿谁?出门东向看,泪落沾我衣。
改写:
如果没有记错的话,今年我已经是八十多岁了。这么多年来,南征北战,辗转流离,看花开花落,在刀山剑海中冲过,我已经记不清过了多少个年头。
我的记忆力全都是战争,有多少朝暮相处的战友在血泊中倒去,而上旁似乎还是眷顾我的,他让我一次次死里逃生。家,是什么的味道,有什么气息,我已经不记得了。是因为我年老了忘了?还是因为我太久时间没回家了?
沿着曲折的小路,踩着地上厚厚的落叶。一道黄昏的残阳洒在我身上,洒在路边的,老树上。这时我才发现,没有战争的黄昏原来是这么美的。
我不知道自己是如何回到村里的,更不知自己是怎样回到那“松柏冢累累”的家。站在我的“家”前,周围的空气似乎已经凝结,黄昏不再美好。父亲、母亲、大哥、大姐,他们全部都在这里,但我再也看不到他们了,他们被土壤囚禁了!垒起来的坟墓杂草丛生,家里的围墙已经倒塌,野兔从家里面探出头来,无解地用红眼盯着我。我打开摇摇欲坠的门。房梁上两只野鸡惊叫着扇动翅膀。扑起阵阵尘埃,几股臭味也扑鼻而来……我几乎要晕倒了,这就是我的家?
我顿觉天旋地转,无力地搀着木门,父亲、母亲、大哥、大姐的脸一时间涌上我的脑海,一切都不可挽回地走向了毁灭。
我从家里弄来些野生稻谷、葵菜,架起炉火,煮饭充饥。在袅袅炊烟中,我看到了晚霞在山的那边凝成了血块。饭菜熟了,我端起饭菜,心里又是一阵彷徨,还有谁能与我共进晚餐呢?
整个村庄死一般的沉寂听不到母亲的呼唤,也听不到战马的嘶号。
Ten years later, I thought that I will become a doctor, because may help many people, I want to go to Paris to live, heard that is very beautiful, I will live with I best friend in the apartment, at that time, the child did not need to go to school, they at home through the computer study, in my family also had the robot, might help us to do many housework, I in the future life will not need the money, because the thing could be free, I good anticipated that I the future life, I will wait not to be anxious!
木船慢慢向岸边靠近,我踏上了那块在梦中忆过无数次的故土。步伐有些僵硬,只念着我又回来了,可又像是回不去了。我脸上勾起许久未现的笑容,笑那小座青丘,笑那一野金稻,炊烟从竹林深处飘来,一切安然,山形依旧。
“客人,你是何处来的人?可是要去村中?”一个孩童在我前方,冲我喊着。我本想走上前去,那蓬头小孩却后退了一步。我招呼着的手缓缓放下,六十五年了,若是儿时的我在路上看见一个陌生的、满脸胡渣、满身伤痕的人,也会恐惧。我脸上的疤痕硬得像块石头,每当摸起却又触及内心最酸楚的地方。此刻间,我只感觉“近乡情更怯”罢了。
“是你?”一位满脸沧桑的老人牵起小孩的手,也看见了我。“是我!”我知晓他是阿珂的父亲。我上前去拉着他。他空洞深陷的眼睛泛黄,皱得像纸皮的脸黝黑嶙峋。老人一把攥住我的手,张了张口,未语泪先流。那浑浊的热泪让我心如刀绞。“阿珂在战场上英勇***敌,但已经不在了。”老人干枯的双手紧紧握住我,颤抖的脸颊依旧老泪纵横,良久,他忽然苦涩的笑了,干涩地挤出一句话:“好,那样也好。”孩童不明所以地坐在一边。看着他,想起我与好兄弟阿珂当年一同被带去服兵役时,也只是十五六岁罢。
边塞的寒风夜里,我时常梦见他于黄沙战场上僵硬在血泊中,随千军万马,伴黄风狂沙,永久葬在异国他乡。“君不见,青海头,古来白骨无人收”,多少年的兵临池下,金戈铁马,我的兄弟,我的战友,一个个血洒天涯。而我如今站在心乡故园中,也算完成了彼此的一个心愿。
我就这样走着,一里路,两里路,三里路……离家的十里路是儿时与父亲天天砍柴,玩闹的地方。“人世几回伤往事,山形依旧枕寒流”,前方家里的稻田地也荒废了。我还是忍着痛不欲生的悲伤,义无反顾地走着。“你一家老小在几年前已经先后离去,全都葬在稻田外的青山上了。”我六十五年的寂寞像是干涸了泪水,红胀了眼,泪却往心里流。
车辚辚,马萧萧,远远走来的官兵带着一群青年,也是十五开外。父母“牵衣顿足拦道哭”远远地“哭声直上干云霄”。大部队走着,连妇女也被抓去充军。此去经年,又是一群年少的身影埋没在故乡的河畔,谁都明白,两头人等待的是生死的轮回。
五里路,六里路。悠悠流年,沧海桑田。阿珂曾言“若此战我有去无回,记得回家时为我立个墓”。耳边又响起年少时母亲的哀嚎:“官爷,他们还小啊。”我分明看到青春里那张人面桃花也万念俱灰。
天阴雨湿声啾啾!尘封了许久的家就在眼前,那磨子上接了蜘蛛网,厚厚的灰尘随阴雨散在我的肩上,有些记忆还在角落催人感伤,而人去楼空,一切终将永久埋葬在雾中。须臾的光阴风干了泪痕,六十五年的空白带着血色与无尽的酸楚,我想,一台老兵的戏也该落幕了。
夕阳西下,从军十几年的家禾不禁驻足望着那轮凄美的夕阳。他喃喃道:“母亲,兄长,你们可都还安好?禾二不孝,这就回家去寻你们。”说完,他拢了拢肩上的包裹,又继续踏上了归途。
一路上,记忆中热闹的街道不知在何时已变得冷清,房屋也大都破败不堪。家禾不禁心生感慨:“这几十年来,家乡的变化竟如此之大啊!”想着,他加快了步伐,想要见到亲人的心情在此刻变得愈发强烈起来。
到达村子的时候已是第二日中午了。整个村子在烈日的照耀下,更是显得荒凉。家禾望着面目全非的村庄,不禁怔了怔,而后才抬脚走进村庄。他边走边在寻找着,看看是否还有自己所熟识的人。想着,他便迎面碰上一个两鬓斑白,手持拐杖的老人。
家禾看他有些面熟,仔细一想,记忆中儿时玩伴的模样竟和眼前人渐渐重合起来。他上前扶着老人,问道:“你可是阿连?”老人闻言,偏着脑袋想了想,答道:“是我,莫非你是……”老人打量了一下眼前人,猛地一抬拐杖,激动地说:“你……你是家禾!”家禾饱经风霜的脸上露出笑容:“是我。我从军的这几十年,家中人可都还安好?”老人摇摇头,叹息着说:“唉,一言难尽啊。你走之后,这里每年都还在征兵,你兄长也被抓了去,你母亲从此茶不思饭不想,没多久也就去了。这村子里只剩我们这几个孤家寡人咯。”
家禾匆匆告别了阿连,快步走到了自己的家中。只见院子已经杂草丛生,还有数不清的野禽;墙上的泥土都已褪色剥落,房屋后面,是紧挨着的坟墓。真是好不伤感!家禾随手摘了点野菜,做成食物后端上桌,只是,少了昔日的热闹而已。想到这,他的眼泪差点没能够抑制得住。吃完饭之后,他又起身站到了家门外。
家禾望着依然陌生的家乡,眼泪终于夺眶而出:“为何连年征战我都未曾随他们去了,落得一个家破人亡的下场。家禾啊家禾,你的家在何方啊……”
Good morning,everybody.I am very glad to stand here and give you a speech.I'm Ren Wen,from Class 17.Well, the topic I'm going to deal with is ten years later.
I have celebrated my 18th birthday a month before.That means I'm no longer a little kid.It's time for me to think about my future.Mom once told me that I should make the most of my age to get as much knowledge as possible.So ten years later,I'll be probably pursuing my further study.Of course,I'll have enough confidence to get my degree.To tell you the truth,the incentive to study is always my mother's encouragement.I wish that I would never let her dowm.The society will be more competitive.There must be more difficulties during ten years.I really hope that I'll successfully conquer them,for it's a good opportunity to estabish myself.
But that's only a minor point.As you all know,a good life that basically drives me crazy.I like a variety of sports.I'll keep on doing exercise regularly.I shall be an refined woman with long hair.By then,I'll find a man who really knows me at all.We'll live together,talk together and travel together.We'll share the laughter, the pain and even the tears.We are going to build up a world of our own,no quarrel but happiness.And from time to time,I'll pick up my violin and play it with a sweet emotion.I like it that my surroundings are full of music.
Well,that's a rough description of my life.There's ten years to go.Anyway,it's a long way.I don't mind whether these dreams come into reality or not.What I care is the process.Just keep on fighting till the end,and I'll be a success!
Thank you!
Today is father s day, for so many years I ve been seekig a way to express my heartfelt thanks for all you have done for me. Here comes it!
Thank you for always being there sharing my life when I need you most. Whenever I encounter difficulties, I never feel alone and vulnerable, because you will keep me on the right path. I m blessed to have you.
Thank you for offering me education and teaching me how to be a man. You always inspire me not by words, but by what you have done! Your efforts in the work, your loyalty to your friends, your responsibility for the family and your persistence in the life have already set me good examples in my own life.
Thank you for always appreciating my work, no matter how tiny it is! You have made me realize that it s capacity not scores that really counts.
Dad, I love you and I will love you forever!
Yours beloved,
Li Ming
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